INTO THE MIND OF A SEXAHOLIK....

Well, it is safe to say....yep....I'm horny.

But with good reason....yea, my girlfriend is miles away from me, and instead of cuddling up next to her, I am here in my hometown of Milwaukee, looking at pictures of her, while impatiently anticipating the 2 weeks I have left, before I get to see her again.

But like most smarty-art niggas like I, I do whatever I can to remedy that mental affliction, and NOT...through masturbation.

Through music.

Over the past couple of weeks, I have been working on two new projects.

The first being the first volume of the Renaissance mixtape series, where the concept is me documenting all my experiences good AND bad, before getting back with Adrianne, at what was my safe haven for a time....yea...the strip club...

The second, hoping to release on Valentine's Day, is the second volume of the Renaissance, where I plan to make a tape, based off of Kanye's new album. Don't get me wrong...I'm not singing...or planning to use the Robot voice...more details soon.

So where am I going with this? Well, it is safe to say, I am using music as a way to express more of my sexuality, especially doing songs for the ladies, and especially doing songs for MY lady. By no means do I plan to dumb down the lyrical ability, because I feel that I am at my best, when others try their damndest to try and decipher everything that I am talking about in my music, but let's say, that this has been the "sexaholik" coming out of me lately.

Over the last few months, I have felt like my sex drive has...decreased...I guess it's due to the stress of my everyday life, or the fact that I don't see my girl as much as I want to, or lack of creativity, or my deteriorating will to do those kind of things, more so cause I feel liberated relaxing and chillin', rather than fuckin' all the time. Yet, I truly believe that the best sex I ever had, has been....with her....more so, cause I have done more that I ever wanted to do with a girl, with her, and that she FUCKING LOVES IT!!! There's nothing like knowing there is a spot on your bed that will forever be there, because you made your girl...*you know where I am going with this*....

So, while I am waiting to express that again with her, I take every route possible, where it helps both stimulate my sex drive again...AND...boost my creativity again a well. I suppose over the last couple of months, I know what I have wanted to become as an artist and I want to use that to my full advantage. At the same time, I know of certain things I can do to spark the flame between me and my girl again in regards to romance.

Reasons why I have hesitated in the past, I suppose, it is more because I am such a reserved, quiet individual that if the mood is right...I will go ALL NIGHT!!! which is TRUE!!! Now, does that tend to the other's needs...maybe not...but if you don't feel it, you don't feel it...and the last thing I would wanna do, is fuck her the moment I get up...where my breath stank, and my eyes are crusty and red, and my voice is groggy....I wanna be refreshed, energetic, and ready to go...but I also know that as much as she initiates it, I can do just as much to instigate it....and I sound like Jesse Jackson, anyways!!!

I ono...I guess to each its own, but we are already in the right direction on how to get back to that...to what it was like when we were at her sister's house for the entire week...that is the type of shit I wanna relive...and winter ain't helping!!! But Valentine's Day is coming...so I will see what I can pull....*WINK*...But I am ready, willing, and able to prove myself that I can be a lover again.