HOW MUCH ONE BLOG ENTRY CAN DO....

Haha, now I don't mean to sound arrogant...well yea, I do, lol. But honestly, this has been a week where I have been influenced and I have been THE influence. And with that, why not apply it to music?

Now although, every time I post a music blog, it is me whining and crying on how I am not reaping the benefits from it, or being pissed at the entire scene in general, due to lack of support from stations, artists, and other bullshit. But with talking with Amanda, planning with Chris and Thought, gettin' wit Ego every time I can, especially with what I have seen and experienced over the last couple of days, it really makes me want to take my music into another direction.

I decided that in following the footsteps of one of my new up-and-coming favorites, Charles "I am a mark for Sonic the Hedgehog" Hamilton, I want to start my own mixtape series where every tape, takes on a different concept, different content, different things to express, yet same flow, same hard beats, same ol' emo me.

Also, I wanted to take this time to expand on something my dear friend Amanda stated in her blog, in which I am apparently the reason she posts everyday now.....lol, arrogance....lol....anyways, yea I been stressing people these last couple days, with the idea that I am getting way too old, WAY too fast. I don't know, a lot of it ties to me, coming face to face with adversity. No, more like a head-on-collision. I have a LOT more responsibilities now than what I had a year ago, and while a lot of it, is a bit overwhelming, to the point where it becomes routine for me, in the process it drags me down as the "free spirit" that I am, to where I'm damn near a robot.

I know my friends urge me to elaborate more as to why everyday sucks for me, and I always give a vague response simply put as "ehhhh". Reason: WHAT'S TO EXPLAIN? LOL. I mean everyday is routine for me. Go to school, get bored. Come home, procrastinate. Go to work, get ridiculed for four hours. Same thing. Only when I am recording, hanging with friends, or I am to myself, putting my creative assets to work, is when I am at solace with everything around me.

So, with me being 23 with 364 days 'til 24, it's safe to say I'm stuck, but who's to say, I won't get through...whether with the luck of God or through hard work.