THE WORST WEEK EVER...(Not sponsored by VH1)

Well "Next Sunday" aka the beginning of March, could NOT have came quick enough. Come to think, it didn't come quick at all. Since last Sunday, I have been

A. Tired beyond the point of oblivion

B. Lacking sleep causing me to be tired.

C. Worked a horrendous amount of days.

D. Had a even MORE horrendous amount of exams (three)

E. As well as a project.

F. Gig gor cancelled.

G. I got too drunk on Monday causing waking up with muscle pains and incoherence.

H. I haven't written shit, except rewrite an old poem.

and....

I. My girlfriend's insecurity complex reached new heights this past week.


So, the question is, with all of that? Do I feel that I have accomplished things this week? To an extent, yes, to an even greater extent...no. Due to the hectic week I had, that had made me more stressed and frustrated with where I stand as a person and an artist. You know those stages where, you're like, "I love rap" one day and then the next you're like "I HATE THIS PART...RIGHT...HERE"(shut up gf)...That's how I am with rap at least at this stage in my life.

Even though, I feel like everyday, everyone else that I know is surpassing me in this rap shit, I know that this is something that I will NEVER stop doing, until I am unable to do it. As much as I tried talking to my gf about it, and as much advice that came out of the conversation, I still felt like, nothing was answered. I guess that's where I have to come in, so that I can be able to make the effort and put my name out there anyway possible.

I am proud and congratulate those that have come a long way (yall know who you are) and are able to get shows and get on records, but PLEASE...keep that shit to yourself. In the end, this is a competitive game, and now in this dwindling economy, it's going to become even MORE competitive. Make your moves, as I am going to make mine, and one way or another, we gonna be sharing a stage. The last thing I wanna do is come off as a hater or that I'm praying for others' downfalls, that's not the case at all, but the last thing that Ima do is kiss ass and follow other peoples' to make a name for ME, I never done it that way, and I don't plan to ever do it that way.

It's basically, I like your music, here's mine, if you feel it, let's work together, let's make shit happen, if not, then its whatever.

AND NOT....I like your music, let's do some shit.

So whether it is me, myself, and I in this local game, then so be it, but I sacrificed a lot to have my craft the way it is now...it's time to let the world know.