"YOU'RE SO SET TO FAAAAAIIIILLLLLL!!!!"

This new Lamb Of God track says it all!!! Or at least that's how I've felt in one long day. For one, the plans for my photoshoot for my up-and-coming, now untitled mixtape, was held up do to so many reasons.

1. My friend who was taking the photos catching a fever.

2. Her losing the camera in Glendale.

3. Her boyfriend's son having to be taken to his mother at 1:00 leaving very little time.

4. The model I had for it, couldn't even respond to a text or phonecall.

So, that pretty much left me in the dust and in disbelief.

Now, I understand there was a mix of things going wrong beyond one's control and miscommunication. Whether to be upset or hurt, there's really nothing I could say or feel and I am not mad at anyone....until someone says some bullshit or whatever. But regardless, I don't know why, but I have just been in this contemplative mood all day. Especially with this whole ex-girlfriend situation taking the forefront again. It's like I mentioned two blogs ago, this has been my inspiration to really...really.....THROW THIS BITCH UNDER THE BUS...especially if she's not only sending dumb e-mails, begging and pleading through the phone...and now...making myspace videos....WE USE YOUTUBE MOFO!!! I'm not even gonna post the link, cause I'm tired of making people famous off of my expense.

I don't know, but this has just been a day beyond expectation and completely fucked me up mentally with no limitations. Not only that, but it has affected me to the point where I'm just fed up with everything. The only good thing I look forward to is getting drunk this week, making money, and the most important thing of all, be able to see my girlfriend this upcoming weekend.

So maybe this is another obstacle for me to get where I need to be. That don't mean I like it. But what the hell can you do? Other than pick up the pieces?

......well...can it be that it was all so simple?